Work has been hectic. Need to rush myself due to the deadlines. Feeling so tired and restless. The eyebags are becoming more worse. Thus, i always look forward to the weekends. A day for me to rest and spent time with the family.
Apart from looking forward to the weekends, i look forward to the late evening walks from my workplace to somewhere. Listening to Adele (Don't you remember). Call me strange, crazy, a loner or whatever, but that is the time when i really have my own mental capacity to think. To reflect what i have done and what i should do to make it better. At times during the walk, i would just smile to myself, thinking about the good times, and at times tears would well up should i think of otherwise. Needless to say, am happy the way i am now.
Met with my best friend for a date and she asked me this straight forward question. Quoting the exact words from her "Sha, kau lesbian eh?", after that she gave me the innocent look. Lol. Nope am not a lesbian. She's just worried as it has been like 3 years that i really fall in love and be with someone.
Well to make things clear, am just happy with myself, with this freedom. I intend to do everything that i want to do. Also, its not easy to get someone who really understands me or vice versa. But should that person appear, then i'll just accept whatever that fate has in store for me. Bak kata in melayu term, aku terserah pada takdir. Jiwang ke per. Lol.
I intend to write about fear in love but am sleepy now. Guess will write next time then.
Till then
Signing out
Finny
PS: Have you completely erased me from your memory? lala.. K bye.
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