A New Year

How do i spent my new year.. Lets see.. I sprained my wonderful ankle again.. Had to skip the party events.. Darns.. Maybe there are reasons behind it for me not attending..

Have been thinking about this thoroughly.. Lets have a recap of what i have done through the year 2009...

Fell in "love".. Gave my heart away..
Got my heart broken cause things are meant not to be..
Graduated with a diploma in accounting and finance..
Got a job in BSM Singapore.. Learn more about the shipping line.. And its been like 6 months i am working in this company..
Have started saving my money in OCBC..
Got a new cousin whom i adore really2 much..
First time Jalan raya with a big group of friends..
Gained friends but got betrayed also...
In the process of getting the heart broken, gained more friends...
The first time i bought a birthday cake for myself.. How pathetic is that..
Spent my 21st day crying the whole day thinking how miserable it has been to spent my day this way..

What is to be done so that things could have been avoided..

NEVER to easily fall for someone even he is very insistent.. In the first stages it could be fun, nice, loved... As times goes by, it would all have a reverse effect.. This heart is not meant to be hurt again and am so tired or going through all this cycle again and again...

To be CLOSER to my family.. No matter what happens, they are still there for me.. Sometimes we do fight with each other due to misunderstandings.. But blood ties could not be cut that easily.. We could have someone special, but if that special someone were to leave, your family is always behind you to be your backup.

LESSEN THE TEARS that i cried for you.. Its no point to think about whatever that happened.. I redha with the pemergian of my beloved ones on god's call.. But the ones who are living and left me just like that... God knows how i feel.. Like what others would comment, we are not meant to be.. Cause i could foresee a future if i could be with you.. Not a nice picture though..

To EXCEL in my career, study and also my sporting life.. Be a better soccer player, pursue my degree and get a better job position maybe?

Have a BETTER HEALTH.. The pain just strikes whenever it wants.. I dont know how long i can take it.. Hopefully i will be strong enough(physically) to achieve whatever that i have stated the above..

Hopefully, YOU will STOP skipping into my sweet dreams when reality its the reverse.. Am SICK and TIRED of SEEING you in my DREAMS.. seriously.. The end effect would be me breaking down again and again.. Am tired.. Really tired..

Lets Reminisce..

Till then

Signing out

Finny

PS: Hopefully i could achieve all this independently...